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one random tuesday?

 We spend so much of our life hating ourselves. Not doing enough. Not being enough. Not looking a certain way. Always blaming ourselves; thinking why things couldn't be different?? and then, without even realising, it just… ends. maybe on a random tuesday. And in that moment, we don’t think about what we could’ve done better. We don’t sit with the “what ifs.” we just look back and smile. because yeah, it was hell- but we did our best. Funny thing is, there were days we hated how we looked, right? But then one day while scrolling through the gallery, we stop at a photo we once couldn’t stand… and suddenly, we whisper, “wow. look at her.” Healing isn’t loud. It doesn’t knock on your door with fireworks. it’s hidden in these tiny, ordinary moments the ones that remind you: you survived, and that’s enough. So maybe today, go back to an old picture of yourself. look at her. That version of you was trying so hard. It deserved love, even then. And now, they deserves your pride too.

home.

" Sometimes, home is just two arms holding you." But most times, it’s a place where you can finally let your emotions out. A space where you know- yes, things are hard right now, but I’ll be okay. A space where you're not obliged to be anything but yourself, where you can simply be until it feels lighter. Where no one yells, no one makes you feel like a failure. Sometimes, home is within you- but you have to build it, slowly, by breaking every norm others build around you. Maybe it’s walking into a cafĂ© on a random evening and reading your favourite book. Getting ice cream at midnight. Running through empty streets just because you felt like it. Dancing to your favourite song by yourself, barefoot, smiling through the tears. Telling yourself, “you did great today.” Maybe it’s holding yourself through the chaos. Taking care of your own heart when everything feels like it’s falling apart. Making sure you are loved. Making sure you are heard. Maybe, in the end... maybe hom...

we've always been

I feel we, as humans, have a terrible habit of attaching our self-worth to certain things, people, situations, or anything we find fascinating at a particular time in our life. I don’t know whether to find it fascinating or ridiculous when, at one point, we felt betrayed or unworthy because our best friend treated us a certain way. Or maybe you didn’t do something you always wanted to something you believed you were capable of and ended up failing. The next thing we know, we’re deep down in the tunnel of agony, thinking about where it went wrong and why it had to happen, contemplating our whole life. It’s weird because when I was 18, I had it all figured out in one night, and suddenly I’m 21, and the world is not what I thought it was. “Adulting is fun,” they said, but they never told us about the responsibilities and everything that comes with it. They told us the world is yours to conquer, but they never mentioned the sacrifices it requires. They said you just have to go out and get ...

Maybe you need this~

November is coming to an end; it's almost the year end. It's been such a rollercoaster, right? This whole year? Since I'm confident we all share the same life in different fonts, I just wanna say that I'm soooo proud of you. I'm soo proud of you for the way you handled situations, I'm so proud of you for the fact you handled that one failure/rejection, I'm so proud of you for the fact you've been patient. I know there must be a time where you felt hopeless and you had to push yourself from everything acting like you don't care when you cared about it the most. There was a time where you isolated yourself. Left things abruptly without thinking twice. And let me tell you. That is alright. What you did, you did it for yourself. And I'm proud of you for that fact.  Do you remember? There was a time, when acting like this scared you; you longed to leave everything behind and prioritise yourself but you just weren't able to. But look at you now. I...

It's just a Chapter

They asked me about my favourite novel and I went through every possibility, even though knowing what I like; I still kept stumbling on it.  I wasn't able to put my mind to one- and when I did I forgot about the another one . I still remember the feeling but I felt messed up with my thoughts;  It turns into a facade memory even with your beautiful moments like that.  I thought it was just trauma which we were supposed to forget but living a life out of something? I don't possibly regret .  I call myself an empath I find the soul in everything but when it comes to preserving my soul? I fail at it miserably.  Sometimes I think, "Oh maybe I'm just here to take care of other things.." but then I think why can't it be the other way? " Maybe I've magic in me and I was put here to give glory to other things!" I know just like the novel, I'll eventually forget the plot but at the end just one thing matters; that is what you feel  throughout .  I th...

You Are Enough.

Being enough... I've quite hated this term while I grew up because I know what it feels like not being enough... I know what it feels like to be an outcast when everyone tells you that's not how it should be.. I know what it feels to study all night giving your best but get minimum grades... I know what it feels like to try your best while doing something and get in response, "Oh but I didn't ask you to."... I know what it feels like when you are constantly putting your everything into something but the other one just refuses to recognise the efforts... I know what it feels like that oh I'd never be enough no matter how much I do... it'll always be like this- Have you ever wondered what the most incredible part of going through a phase like this is?   The best part of going through the process is that it helps you grow and learn. It challenges you to adapt to different situations, overcome obstacles, and develop new skills. It allows you to gain knowledge...

STOP VICTIMISING YOURSELF IT IS NOT COOL!!

  Let me tell you one thing there are number of people in the world that has honestly worse than you! Trust me that doesn’t mean your emotions doesn’t have value but that means despite of the situation people are going through they tend to keep going. And what are you talking about? Crying about??? Being heartbroken ?? Seriously?? Stop constantly degrading yourself by allowing disrespect from people who doesn’t even deserve your presence!! DISRESPECT IS NOT A JOKE!!  LEARN TO SET BOUNDARIES , letting toxic people in is gonna delay your result. There are people out there who burn-out themselves by working several jobs, while getting their degree just because they have some “goal” for their future and they tend to work for it; there are people out there constantly working their ass off just because they don’t wanna fit it, and trust me that's a privilege one could hold.  Learn to EDUCATE yourself on several things, because that's the only thing you have till the end of t...