Just one more time.

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 Dear Me, 

Firstly, I've to apologize for whatever I made you go through. I shouldn't have done that. I was wrong when I told you that you are not perfect and would never be enough. Furthermore, I'm sorry I shouldn't have listened to other people when they told me you are ugly and no one would ever give the slightest attention to you. I'm so sorry for all those sleepless nights and those cover thoughts. I am sorry, that I made you waste your time on people when they neither valued nor cared about your existence. I'm sorry for making you feel bad about yourself. I'm sorry that you were tired, and I kept forcing you. I am sorry that I kept blaming everything on you, and you listened to it all without even questioning me once. But guess what I was wrong this whole time I forgot that something like perfection doesn't even exist it was just a myth, the things I used to hate about you the most are now my power. You were never less or too much just people around you made you believe that you were never enough the word beLIEve itself contained a huge lie when they all were talking about it. You have all that you ever imagined as your younger self if you take a glimpse in past you couldn't be more proud not because you lost or gained weight or tried to keep people in your life or started looking better. It would be because you accepted yourself as you are!! Sure it took a lot of time I put you through hardships but whenever we take a glance they all were worth it!! Some things were meant to happen; some rules were meant to be broken, but I promise you that whatever we will do would be for us this time. I was so blinded by the thought of becoming the ideal perfectionist when I forgot that there was a small girl with big dreams and hope in her eyes that was somewhere dying inside me by trying to fit in it was nothing but suffocating, but we don't have to let it die. I put you through everything you never questioned this would be the last time you will have to suffer because it would be for none other than us. You kept going failed, crawled, and started walking again. But this time for us start walking again just to see what happens when you start loving and prioritizing yourself because you deserve it, stop accepting the bare minimum. You deserved to be loved and taken care of; no one can do that for you. Just one more time I think you should keep going just to see what happens... just one more time. 
Yours, 
with love <3

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